A 2009 recap and my life goals and poker goals for 2010

Well i really can't believe i am saying this but it is basically a new year, a new decade.It kind of scary when i think about it.I remember the last day of 99 so clearly and it did not seem long ago.My house had all the family over for the bells, i must have been around 8 at the time.I remember playing some stupid kids games with my cousins and falling alsleep right after the bells.Yeah so ten years on it has just flew in, i don't even know how i remember this stuff.Anyway so now onto 2009, a lot of people say the usual it's had it's ups and downs but not for me, it has been basically all ups for me, so has every year of my life so far.I always seem to be happy and it takes a lot for me to get sad.It is a good thing i suppose though, i am a very positive thinker and i am always smiling, i just really enjoy life and every day stuff.I am very thankful that i live the life i have cause i am extremely lucky in many ways too.First of all i have very good family support, all my grandparents are still living which is really cool.Not many guys at 18 can say that, i actually feel sorry for some people who have lost a mum or dad at a young but i mean that is a part of life too so i think if it happened you would just have to adapt, it is either make them proud or drown your sorrows.I also have a very nice home and lots of different things to do in it, i like my area, it is pretty peaceful.I like the friends i have and i also like the day to day people you meet who are all nice.Nearly every single person is a nice person, it is only a tiny tiny minority who ruin that, some of these people are ill though or very misguided.Just remember people who have murdered and done bad things, they still have a mum, a dad, grandparents ect so you should never hold a grudge, these people should do their time in jail but they should be forgiven, too many people don't forgive them but then even though these people don't forgive them they have let's say for talking sake a 11 year jail term and get out in 5 which is pathetic, just whatever time they get they do simple stuff.I have the cold and don't feel well so tonight is a nice resting night just watching some tv shows.Lastly i have being very grateful to be able to play two great hobbies of mine, poker and pes.Poker has been really good this year, i really stuck at it and read the books and really improved my game, i haven't had that really big win yet but i made several final tables and i won a few mtt, it just so happened that they where smaller events and smaller buy ins so i didn't win as much, not really caring about it though cause i have said, i am more interested in winning than prizes.You can have the money for 2nd place but why settle for 2nd place when you can have the winners title, i dunno i just think people who are passionate about winning seem to get a lot further than the ones that are only interested in the prizes and don't put work in.Now pes i had a great season, it finished up in August but i will discuss last years.Okay the official site is pesrankings and the season started in October 2008, i didn't start playing playing till March so i was so behind every one and it is very hard, there is around 60,000 - 70,000 players registered and to make the grand Finals you had to be in top 64.So my first event was in March, i was unbeaten in my group but drew to many games and didn't get through so home i went.Then the next couple of offline events i did not attend because i was busy so i played a few online events which just went average, that was it really.So the way they work it is the Grand Finals are at start of August so they stop the league table a few weeks before and the top 64 are the ones invited and then the tables plays out like normal.I got invited to a one at Braehead in June, now this event was on Sunday and this table was getting stopped this very night, i decided to go as i hadn't been to the last couple and the guy asked me so that was nice of him, i was going my holidays in two days so i totaly hadn't planned to go to this one.So it was international and my group was decent, not top players, i was unbeaten winning all my games apart from one which i drew and finished top.So it took a while for the other groups to get finished so i had decent break.Then the knockouts came which i got a bye so straight into quarter finals.The game was very equal between me and my opponent and it went to penalites, i don't mind penalties, it is mostly luck, i missed my first which was a terrible start but then my opponent missed a few and i won so semi finals i went.So my nexy opponent used England which is unusual, he was quite a good player, very good at crossing, i was 3-2 down in last 10 mins and i scored to make it 3-3, then i won 5-3 in extra time, that was me through to the final.So i was playing the final and the guy i was playing is kind of a favorite for all the events, he is Scotlands number 1, i am Scotlands number 6.So i lost 4-2 which was unlucky but i played great the whole day and there was nothing i could have done different, it felt so good afterwards and the guys where saying you have a chance at making the Grand Finals at Old Trafford i was like wow.I mean here i am a guy who started playing in March, my 2nd offline event where the big k value points are i have a chance at making the Grand Finals.Well they where correct, i managed to scrape into top 64 and got invited, how great.The stadium i want to go to out of all the stadiums worldwide i get to go and get a free tour.I was chuffed, so where my family they where all happy for me.I wasn't done there though, i was there to try my best to win.So i lost 6-1 in my first game, lots went wrong had i guy sent off for no reason.Well i bounced back and won four games and losing one more to finish 3rd in my group.The top 4 progressed to knockouts, there was 7 in my group.So my first knockout game i was playing this guy who everyone was talking about, he was very skillfull and very attacking minded, i lost a goal early on but came to back fighting to win 5-1, so into last 16 and now i was really enjoying myself.I was playing a guy who was the European champ a few season back, he is the most well known uk player and i think he got to play John terry once, so it was funny cause all the other games had like two people watching mine had around 40 or that.The picture cameras where on too but i loved it, i enjoy the pressure i seem to play better under it for some reason.I had a really bad start, i got a penalty against me which was an awful decision and went 3-0 down but i fought it back but lost 4-3.So that was me done, i came 21st ending the season which i am very happy at but i still want to get better and maybe win the whole season one day.I have my medal from rhe event at Brahead which i made final of and i have also kept my football which i got as a bonus, i ain't opened or nothing.Yeah so been a great year and i move onto 2010.

So 2010 i more discussing my goals and stuff, i also have a few poker goals i want to share with you all.So here is a list of my life goals first of all

1) find work in something i enjoy or even go back to college to do something that i am happy doing
2) help every one who needs it at that given time
3) going to try and train for a 10k run, done it twice but skipped last year as i had an injury, my best time is 40 mins
4) Go in for Big Brother, i think it would be some challenge to be on that show
5) Give money to a certain charity, not decided what one, i am very picky cause i only give it if i feel they have a really big reason for needing it

Now my poker goals

1) Win an mtt with more than 500 players in it
2) make a yearly profit of $2,000
3) play more live, maybe even taking a trip down south to play
4) Make at least 10 Final table throughout the year
5) Have at very least 50 cashes throughout the year

I keep track of all that i play so i will be able to work out if i made my goals or not, they are all in realistic proportion, if i get 5 that would be great, 3 or above would be quite good.I personally do believe 2010 is my year to shine in poker, i get feelings and they are usually correct, i can only try my best and whatever happens happens

So aside from all that i have started making video blogs on Youtube, not doing any more until my cold and cough clears up, i want to be in good shape to do one lol.But in all seriousness i want to say thanks for all who have watched and left comments and messages, every one who is subscribed to my i appreciate and i hope to keep you entertained on them soon enough.

To round it off 2009 has been a great year, happy to be going into a new decade and i will just need see what happens.I think the main reason why i am so happy all the time and very positive is because i just be myself.What you see is what you get basically.I don't change for other people, i feel that people who do this are leading a very unhealthy life and could probably crack one day as they are not being true to themselves.Just have thick skin and don't worry around what others think of your personality, just be you, yeah i don't care, people can either like me or not, it is their choice lol.

p.s. my mum was in bathroom for long time so i kind of took my time and rabbled doing this, sorry for it being so long, i enjoyed doing this blog though.

All in all, have a great New year everybody.God bless you all !

Drinking is not a crime neither is gambling

there are a few people who will read this first line and leave, now that is their own choice.For everyone else both of what i mentioned above shouldn't be made as a guilty thing.First off drinking is absolutely fine to do as long as you don't drink every single day of your life, the same with gambling.Gambling is a lot of fun and some try serious to win which is fine but if you let it affect your life that is when the trouble kicks in.For majority of people it is good, they either drink sometimes and do some gambling withing their own personal limits or the do both.People are more against gambling i have found than drink which is understandable.I will admit that i agree gambling can be the worse thing out of drink, drugs and that.It is easy to become addicted but i have found the people who let it take over there life usually did not have a balance life before they started playing so that became such an important issue.I think the way a city like Amsterdam is run is totally great.You should be allowed to have fun and i really do feel if they started not caring as much about those stuff they would get less.It's like when people know something is bad they do as temptation plays a role in life.They should really be dealing with getting knife crime sorted and tougher jail sentences.Everyone can be forgived even if they murder or rape someone, you can always forgive people but they should still get the punishment, basically they should pay the price.Okay back to what i started with, both a great things to do as long as you don't overuse them and keep a balanced life.That is the main thing, do a variety of stuff.At the end of the day if your drinking or gambling just for the sake of doing it or for the money then maybe you should quit.I know it is easy saying this, people can't resist doing stuff a lot of the time if they get in habit but both are totally fine to do and you should never feel ashamed of doing them.I will finish off by saying gambling is made more guilty than the rest.For the reason people say for example if your playing poker your stealing someone elses money.Now that is bullshit.If you go to a cinema the staff take your money to get in, if you got for a meal you have to pay.So anyone who plays at poker knows that they have more chance of losing than winning as only around 10% of poker players are winning players throughout their career with 45% breaking even and 45% losing.They all agree to lose there money and at the end of the day it is just a game, people play to enjoy it too.Now say you are playing in a casino people might enjoy your company and the rest.Just remember though don't go down the path of extreme, drink sometimes and gamble sometimes, just don't let it dictate your life and you will enjoy it.

A quick blog is better than none at all

I have just played my first offline pes event which was okay, random teams i am not a big fan of.It is kind of fun in a way but i well prefer the big teams, am a specialist with Ronaldo and Kaka so they two go well with Madrid.I just stayed the same in my rankings really well moved slightly down but it is start of season and i havn't played that much so still to get in my stride.I am considering travelling to play north and south events later on in the season, they are really big ones.

Apart from that just been getting everything ready for Christmas and been a bit busy last couple of days.Now i just chill for an hour before i go back out.I am looking for phones on web, the Blackberry phones will probably be my choice if i can get a good deal anywhere within the nest few months.

X Factor Semi Final

Only 2 more days until the big semi final, sadly i am busy that night so i need to tape it on sky plus and then watch it later, which will be hard as i am playing my 1st pes offline tournament on sunday, i guess i will have to get up really early sunday morning.They have all done well to get this far and i believe Stacey will win the show due to her great singing, a crowd favourite, the looks help a bit and she is very funny and great for tv.The producers done a great job on that.Simon Cowell also confessed to fancying Cheryl, he said he probably fancies Cheryl more than she fancies him lol, she doesn't wear her rings so unsure what is going on with her and Ashley, Danni can hold back a bit imo i mean if anyone remembers the auditions with that girl woh was just under average for singing she didn't tell her what she thought when it came to her, Louis was straight in there though, i can understand Danni doing what she did but there was no harm in being honest.I give you link and i leave you with a comment on the last four.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBVbkz4MVfI

Stacey - I mentioned her bit up above, she should win, great voice and a hot favourite to win it
Danyl - The guy has impressed me last few weeks, he has improved and has a chance still
Joe - What a nice guy, always smiling and got a gifted voice, a dark horse to win
Ollie - Very confident man who is an everyday guy which fans like, he has a decent chance

All have a chance, so let's find out how they sing on saturday

The Music Is All For Media

If anyone is really into music then this a blog for you guys.If you think about all the people who get major record deals these days and get signed with the big companies are half getting signed because they relate well to the public.I think this is great though because most of the song i actually listen to are not really to do with the song, it is more to do with do a like they people and the song is a kind of bonus.I will give you an example here, someone the likes of Susan Boyle got a record deal, now she got that due to she had an exceptional voice, but let's think of say for talking sake N Dubz, they all have very average voice but bring a lot of fun and entertainment to the music industry.I think that is what it should be about these days, i like people who make it fun and don't just stand there and sing.Anyone with a decent voice can get a record deal if they have the other attributes and a little luck.I was reading an article last week about a guy who is in a Scottish band.He said that he got offered a deal but didn't take it due to not really wanting one as he thinks it is pretty negative, he also slagged Cheryl Cole saying that her song was pathetic and only reason it got to number 1 is because everyone watches the X Factor on a saturday night.Now her song is quite good but she was in a huge band which where successful and her looks help too but i think she can relate well to a lot of people.I mean people would rather see her than someone like Pete Docherty.Entertainment is very important for music, why should you pay money for a concery just to hear someone singing perfectly and standing still doing nothing, you need to have people who make the crowd feel good and put on a great show and looking the part is very important.I know a lot of people would disagree with me on this which is fine but i know who i would rather watch, an outstanding boring singer or a decent singer that brings colour, i choose the latter !