A 2009 recap and my life goals and poker goals for 2010

Well i really can't believe i am saying this but it is basically a new year, a new decade.It kind of scary when i think about it.I remember the last day of 99 so clearly and it did not seem long ago.My house had all the family over for the bells, i must have been around 8 at the time.I remember playing some stupid kids games with my cousins and falling alsleep right after the bells.Yeah so ten years on it has just flew in, i don't even know how i remember this stuff.Anyway so now onto 2009, a lot of people say the usual it's had it's ups and downs but not for me, it has been basically all ups for me, so has every year of my life so far.I always seem to be happy and it takes a lot for me to get sad.It is a good thing i suppose though, i am a very positive thinker and i am always smiling, i just really enjoy life and every day stuff.I am very thankful that i live the life i have cause i am extremely lucky in many ways too.First of all i have very good family support, all my grandparents are still living which is really cool.Not many guys at 18 can say that, i actually feel sorry for some people who have lost a mum or dad at a young but i mean that is a part of life too so i think if it happened you would just have to adapt, it is either make them proud or drown your sorrows.I also have a very nice home and lots of different things to do in it, i like my area, it is pretty peaceful.I like the friends i have and i also like the day to day people you meet who are all nice.Nearly every single person is a nice person, it is only a tiny tiny minority who ruin that, some of these people are ill though or very misguided.Just remember people who have murdered and done bad things, they still have a mum, a dad, grandparents ect so you should never hold a grudge, these people should do their time in jail but they should be forgiven, too many people don't forgive them but then even though these people don't forgive them they have let's say for talking sake a 11 year jail term and get out in 5 which is pathetic, just whatever time they get they do simple stuff.I have the cold and don't feel well so tonight is a nice resting night just watching some tv shows.Lastly i have being very grateful to be able to play two great hobbies of mine, poker and pes.Poker has been really good this year, i really stuck at it and read the books and really improved my game, i haven't had that really big win yet but i made several final tables and i won a few mtt, it just so happened that they where smaller events and smaller buy ins so i didn't win as much, not really caring about it though cause i have said, i am more interested in winning than prizes.You can have the money for 2nd place but why settle for 2nd place when you can have the winners title, i dunno i just think people who are passionate about winning seem to get a lot further than the ones that are only interested in the prizes and don't put work in.Now pes i had a great season, it finished up in August but i will discuss last years.Okay the official site is pesrankings and the season started in October 2008, i didn't start playing playing till March so i was so behind every one and it is very hard, there is around 60,000 - 70,000 players registered and to make the grand Finals you had to be in top 64.So my first event was in March, i was unbeaten in my group but drew to many games and didn't get through so home i went.Then the next couple of offline events i did not attend because i was busy so i played a few online events which just went average, that was it really.So the way they work it is the Grand Finals are at start of August so they stop the league table a few weeks before and the top 64 are the ones invited and then the tables plays out like normal.I got invited to a one at Braehead in June, now this event was on Sunday and this table was getting stopped this very night, i decided to go as i hadn't been to the last couple and the guy asked me so that was nice of him, i was going my holidays in two days so i totaly hadn't planned to go to this one.So it was international and my group was decent, not top players, i was unbeaten winning all my games apart from one which i drew and finished top.So it took a while for the other groups to get finished so i had decent break.Then the knockouts came which i got a bye so straight into quarter finals.The game was very equal between me and my opponent and it went to penalites, i don't mind penalties, it is mostly luck, i missed my first which was a terrible start but then my opponent missed a few and i won so semi finals i went.So my nexy opponent used England which is unusual, he was quite a good player, very good at crossing, i was 3-2 down in last 10 mins and i scored to make it 3-3, then i won 5-3 in extra time, that was me through to the final.So i was playing the final and the guy i was playing is kind of a favorite for all the events, he is Scotlands number 1, i am Scotlands number 6.So i lost 4-2 which was unlucky but i played great the whole day and there was nothing i could have done different, it felt so good afterwards and the guys where saying you have a chance at making the Grand Finals at Old Trafford i was like wow.I mean here i am a guy who started playing in March, my 2nd offline event where the big k value points are i have a chance at making the Grand Finals.Well they where correct, i managed to scrape into top 64 and got invited, how great.The stadium i want to go to out of all the stadiums worldwide i get to go and get a free tour.I was chuffed, so where my family they where all happy for me.I wasn't done there though, i was there to try my best to win.So i lost 6-1 in my first game, lots went wrong had i guy sent off for no reason.Well i bounced back and won four games and losing one more to finish 3rd in my group.The top 4 progressed to knockouts, there was 7 in my group.So my first knockout game i was playing this guy who everyone was talking about, he was very skillfull and very attacking minded, i lost a goal early on but came to back fighting to win 5-1, so into last 16 and now i was really enjoying myself.I was playing a guy who was the European champ a few season back, he is the most well known uk player and i think he got to play John terry once, so it was funny cause all the other games had like two people watching mine had around 40 or that.The picture cameras where on too but i loved it, i enjoy the pressure i seem to play better under it for some reason.I had a really bad start, i got a penalty against me which was an awful decision and went 3-0 down but i fought it back but lost 4-3.So that was me done, i came 21st ending the season which i am very happy at but i still want to get better and maybe win the whole season one day.I have my medal from rhe event at Brahead which i made final of and i have also kept my football which i got as a bonus, i ain't opened or nothing.Yeah so been a great year and i move onto 2010.

So 2010 i more discussing my goals and stuff, i also have a few poker goals i want to share with you all.So here is a list of my life goals first of all

1) find work in something i enjoy or even go back to college to do something that i am happy doing
2) help every one who needs it at that given time
3) going to try and train for a 10k run, done it twice but skipped last year as i had an injury, my best time is 40 mins
4) Go in for Big Brother, i think it would be some challenge to be on that show
5) Give money to a certain charity, not decided what one, i am very picky cause i only give it if i feel they have a really big reason for needing it

Now my poker goals

1) Win an mtt with more than 500 players in it
2) make a yearly profit of $2,000
3) play more live, maybe even taking a trip down south to play
4) Make at least 10 Final table throughout the year
5) Have at very least 50 cashes throughout the year

I keep track of all that i play so i will be able to work out if i made my goals or not, they are all in realistic proportion, if i get 5 that would be great, 3 or above would be quite good.I personally do believe 2010 is my year to shine in poker, i get feelings and they are usually correct, i can only try my best and whatever happens happens

So aside from all that i have started making video blogs on Youtube, not doing any more until my cold and cough clears up, i want to be in good shape to do one lol.But in all seriousness i want to say thanks for all who have watched and left comments and messages, every one who is subscribed to my i appreciate and i hope to keep you entertained on them soon enough.

To round it off 2009 has been a great year, happy to be going into a new decade and i will just need see what happens.I think the main reason why i am so happy all the time and very positive is because i just be myself.What you see is what you get basically.I don't change for other people, i feel that people who do this are leading a very unhealthy life and could probably crack one day as they are not being true to themselves.Just have thick skin and don't worry around what others think of your personality, just be you, yeah i don't care, people can either like me or not, it is their choice lol.

p.s. my mum was in bathroom for long time so i kind of took my time and rabbled doing this, sorry for it being so long, i enjoyed doing this blog though.

All in all, have a great New year everybody.God bless you all !